It has been a very long time since I have posted. I am not exactly sure why that is exactly. Maybe I lost my way.
I have been somewhat busy I guess with work. And for the past few months I have been feeling very empty. That is the only way I can describe it. Not sad. Not depressed really. Just empty.
The title about sums things up. This is what has been on my mind lately.
Let me be clear. I have a very good life. I work as a substitute teacher during the school year AND I have my own little lawn care business which allows me to be outside getting exercise AND making money. How awesome is that? I have great friends and my parents are still alive and well. My son did just move out to his own place but he is doing well. I am healthy although my eating could be better but for the past week I have been on track with that.
Hell I even have a trip planned for February and March to visit Portugal. I am indeed a fortunate and grateful person.
So what’s the problem?? That’s the thing. I don’t really know. I just feel empty. Like something is missing.
I get along with people fine but sometimes I have a hard time connecting. I feel that the vast majority of people just buy into all the crap that is fed to them everyday and I tend to think on a different level.
I am a bit tired of all the bullshit that is rammed down our throats by mass media. Maybe some of you feel the same way. The messages that tell us to think a certain way, to buy stuff, to eat this, and on and on. I am just tired of it all. I want to to just say screw it and go be a hermit.
There has got to be more to life than this. More than just going through the motions of what is expected.
The are millions of blog posts dedicated to helping a person find meaningfulness or purpose or passion and I have read quite a few of them but they don’t seem to resonate.
What am I missing? Is there more to life?
If anyone happens upon this post I would love to hear your thoughts or comments.