“The price of anything is the amount of life you exchange for it.” —Henry Thoreau
I want to sell everything. Well, all of my material possessions. I don’t think too many people would buy my files of various paperwork.
So the questions I have about wanting to sell everything I own are:
- Why do I feel this way?
- What do I think it will accomplish?
- Does anyone else feel this way?
If I Was To Sell Everything in My Apartment…
Life would be perfect. That is kind of what I think which I realize is not true. And yet I am a bit obsessed with the thought of getting rid of all my stuff. It is weighing me down. But I am also wondering if it is tied to my anxiety and the depression I am slipping into.
“When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.” ― Lao Tzu
None of this stuff makes me happy. I suppose some of it is useful and gives me joy(thinking of the window A/C on these hot and humid summer days!). But overall I don’t have anything that I care about too deeply.
I Claim To Be A Minimalist But…
For years I have identified as a minimalist but I have a lot of useless crap. It seems to be human nature to fill our spaces with stuff. The average North American home has 300000 items in it. Wow. It is a never ending cycle of buy stuff , get rid of it, buy some more.
What is the point of all that?
I Want To See What It Would Be Like To Sell Everything
I want to see what if i could do it. I want to see what emotions I would go through in parting with my stuff. I have spent money on this crap. Would I be able to actually sell it for a fraction of what I paid for it? How would it feel to have 80% less stuff in my apartment?
I want to do this as a learning experiment.
But maybe there is something more…
Is It Tied To How I Feel About Life?
Could it be that this feeling of wanting to sell everything I own is tied to how I feel about life? I am feeling a bit down lately. Not sure exactly why that is. On the surface my life is great. I have lots of work. I am saving 80% of my income. My health is great. I am down 80 pounds in weight over the past year. I have another epic solo travel adventure planned for February and March 2018. And yet I am just feeling a bit…down.
Selling all your stuff and starting over sounds so romantic. It is so appealing.
Maybe I feel like a failure and this would be my way of starting over. Hitting the reset button.
Would anything change?
I Need To Stop Comparing My Life
This would mean no social media which may be a good thing of course. I need to practice gratitude and mindful meditation. I know how important these things are for my mental well being.
And yet I am still drawn to selling everything I own. This stuff around here seems to be some sort of reminder that I cannot get myself sorted out. Grrr. I don’t know how to explain it! It is just a nagging feeling I have.
Maybe it is a way to exert some control over my life. I would be a way to actually see real change. As opposed to just moving crap from one place to another. Which some people call “getting organized”. I call bullshit on that. I would rather de-own stuff instead of just decluttering, which does not tend to get me very far.
So I am dealing with this slightly-more-than-mild obsession of selling everything.
Does anyone else out there feel the same way?
Please let me know in the comments.
“Change The Code. Change Your Life”